the real me: worthy
June 18, 2010
tis time for random.
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two appointments cancelled today. i sat by the neighbor’s pool for 85 minutes. i was bored out of my mind.
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i tried to pray. the wind was distracting. hmmm. . .
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i have been sweating more since i turned 40.
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i’m almost 41. uh. oh.
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my kids are cracking me up.
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i could eat a cupcake right now.
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my training started for my next 1/2 – i love it.
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i get really excited to have a training program.
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i like my hair.
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i think it’s wrong for me to dance like a 20-year-old – but i do it anyway.
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i vow to have abs of steel by the end of this training.
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i will keep them.
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my brain is very full right now.
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i’m going to stop making a list.
It’s frightening to me – what goes on in my head. I’m working hard to get to know myself and understand why I do the things I do. I can’t trust history – I have not always been so awesome. I used to be a pain in the a$$. Now I’m quite something. 🙂
But there are parts of the ‘old me’ that I miss. The cavalier attitude. The pride in my accomplishments. The belief that I could do whatever and not worry (too much) about what others thought.
Then. . .I grew up – if you want to call it that – into “I hope I say the right thing” or “I can’t believe I just did that.” Grown-ups can be judgemental and I was my own worst enemy. Still can be sometimes.
Lately I’ve been thinking about what I LOVE. Not people I love – because darn it, I can’t make a living kissing my kids, sleeping with my husband, and hanging out with friends. So what do I love? I LOVE kids. I LOVE parenting. I’ve combined those two loves for a long time – but not everyone I work with feels the same. Sometimes I feel like I’m working hard to convince parents and teachers that the children in their lives are NOT purposefully making them miserable. Sometimes I work hard to convince myself that there shouldn’t be a natural selection process at the hospital – the parents, not the babies. just sayin’.
I also LOVE running. I think it’s time to squeeze that into something to help kids and parents.
I believe every person is an athlete. I believe every person is worthy of spending the time it takes to take care of their body. I believe every mommy (sorry dads – we’re different) deserves to recharge everyday to be the best person she can be.
I’ve got big things in the works. Maybe I’ll share them sometime.
Run on Friends.
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Sounds like you have a BIG MISSION in the works!
Yes.
But now comes the hard part – patience. ugh.
I like where this might be going…!!! If anyone could combine the two, it’s DEFINITELY you!
i LOVE this post!